No Reason To Kill My Only Demon....

With Sick Females Sinning all around who love all the Evil of the world

• They are Hyper Materialistic with no Morals, Values or Respect for True Love or Soulmate-ship.
• Who have no concept of Right or Wrong/Good or Bad.
• Who have no Shame in being Fully/Partially Naked Physically, Mentally & Spiritually in front of people they are not in Love with.
• Who Take pride and have a sense of achievement in taking Drugs, Smoking & Drinking.
• Who are Physical, Mental AND/OR Spiritual Sluts making this world another "Sodom & Gomorrah".

Worse is them Pretending to be Virgin Angels (Please read Post True Virginity: Are You Really The Virgin You Claim You Are?)) and conning dedicated men into loving them.

Thus the last thing that I would want is to kill the only Demon In Me... Cause its only the Demon (that's gotten inside me) that can and that should treat them the way they should be treated....

Fortunately or Unfortunately its only my Soulmate for who I would want to destroy it....

The Weird Pain Of My Foolishness....

The Pain and Self-Disgust that I feel, even at the thought of having met, interacted, blindly trusted, befriended and loved many Homo Sapiens pretending to be Human is one of the most Inexpressible and Torturing of all feelings I have ever experienced...

These Homo Sapiens:

• Never love honestly and wholeheartedly and never give their 100% but expect to be loved honestly and wholeheartedly 100%.
• Feel no shame in lying, hiding and backstabbing.
• Always act like an angel and made me feel like a devil but who themselves have a life filled with the most shameless, disgusting deeds, history and have the ugliest skeletons in the Closet.
• Have a mindset of one of the Greatest Spoilt Brats I have ever met.
• Are Very Very Selfish  and were smart enough to exploit me in many ways and few even drained me out of every last penny that I had. When in need of money they will never use a single penny of theirs to help you out.
• Would have the unbelievable ability to not do anything for you and yet enslave you for life.

The pain and self-disgust is at it highest when I am reminded of my Stupidity, Carelessness, Lack of Foresight, When ever I happen to see them enjoying their ugly lives with no shame or guilt.

Behind the Mask By Michael Jackson King of Pop, God of Dance...

Nothing better than MJ's song Behind the Mask to express how i feel...
The Copyright of this song belongs to MJ only.....

All along I had to talk about it
But like a two edged sword
it cuts you and it stabs me
All along I knew you were a phony girl
You sit behind the mask
and you control your world
You sit around and I watch your face
I try to find the truth
But that's your hiding place
You say you love me but it's hard to see
Cos when he's in your arms
You're throwing rocks at me

Who do you love?
Is it me?
With you?
I don't know
Who do you love?
I don't want ya
If you can't answer
You know me
    (There is nothing in your eyes)
There is nothing in your eyes
(But that's the way you cry)
But that's the way you cry girl (Cry girl)
(All is grand, all is bright)
All is grand, all is bright
(you're just studyng my mind)

I Walk around i'm suffering in my doom
When I come to you
Your sitting in your room
You sit around in the strangest place
So take off the mask
So I can see your face

Who do you love?
Is it me?
With You?
I don't know
Who do you love, babe?
I don't want ya
If you can't answer     I know you

(Heaven must be wary)

Heaven must be wary
(Your smile is scary)
You got me scared, girl
(Insincere, empty tears)
Every Year, yours are good
(Where's your soul? Where'd it go?)
You got me scared, girl

(Heaven must be wary)
Heaven must be wary
(Your smile is scary)
You know where you've been
(Insincere, empty tears)
Every year, na na na
(Where's your soul? Where did it go?)

I Walk around i'm suffering in my doom
And when I come to you

 Guess I dont need to say any more to all the fakers... do I ?...

The fear of falling in love with the wrong woman...

The fear of falling in love with the wrong woman is so great that

1. I don't want to be Rich, lest some parasite pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just for my money, property or wealth.
2. I don't want to be even the least Good Looking or dress handsomely, lest some slut pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just for my body.
3. I don't want to be Famous, lest some fame seeker pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just to be a part of the limelight.
4. I don't want to be Strong and Powerful, lest some user pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just to be taking advantage of my strength and power.
5. I don't want to be Loving and Caring, lest some exploiting bad woman pretending to be a lover would want to love/marry me just to exploit me.
6. So on and so forth...

In short I don't want to have or be anything that any wrong woman would want or would make her take interest in me...


BUT FOR THE RIGHT WOMAN, THE ONE WHO LOVES ME EVEN IF I AM POOR, UGLY, NOT FAMOUS, WEAK ETC. AND IS READY TO BE MY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING - I WANT TO AND AM READY TO BE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING - RICH, GOOD LOOKING, FAMOUS, STRONG AND POWERFUL, LOVING AND CARING AND EVERYTHING THAT I SHOULD. TO BE THE PERFECT MAN FOR HER...

Folly Of Falling In Love With Someone Who Is Not Your Soulmate...

The folly of falling in love with someone who is not your Soulmate can become a Life-Long punishment especially if you have issues that a Non-Soulmate can never understand... and can become a Torture if that Non-Soulmate is someone who cannot understand your problems and situations or worse who has no OR has a perverted concept of love...

Inability to identify My Real Soulmate combined with the desperation of finding My Soulmate is the true cause of this folly.