Unbreak My Heart... Say You Love Me Again...

Agar Tum Mil Jao... (Song Dedication)

I had never seen the actual movie version of this amazing Soulmate song untill yesterday, and was extremely disappointed to see how they had perverted the beauty and the depth in it.... a total heart break...

So here is the song For you My Love with a beautiful presentation that I found on Youtube...

His prayer is mine too...

THOUGH I WAS UNABLE TO BE AS GOOD A HUMAN BEING THAT HE WAS, BECAUSE OF ALL THE HORRORS OF MY PAST HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN... AND GETTING HIT IN ALL THE SAME PLACES I WAS ALREADY HURT AND IN PAIN.

 
YET ALL I HAVE IS A PRAYER FOR YOUR HAPPINESS AND WELL BEING: " MAY ALL YOUR SORROWS BE MINE AND ALL MY HAPPINESS BE YOURS, WHERE EVER YOU ARE AND WITH WHOEVER YOU ARE...

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...

But As Long As I Live....

Till the time God Decides to grant me my Death Wish...

I WILL:

• Dedicate the rest of my Life In Penance for all the Sins I have committed.
• Dedicate the rest of my Life To Loving You, no matter where I am.
• Dedicate the rest of my life To prove to you The Real Meaning of True Love and that it Exists.
• Prove that True Love is the only thing that One Needs to Live & Be Happy.
• Prove that True Love Can Teach One Anything.

Death Cometh To Me!!!

Nothing in my life, I REALLY MEAN NOTHING!!! BUT GOD & YOU!!! CAN  EVER BREAK AND DESTROY ME TO THE CORE...

AND ONLY YOU CAN BREAK AND DESTROY ME THE WAY YOU HAVE...

I HAVE STOOD UP AFTER FALLING DOWN EVERY TIME THROUGH Child Hood Abuse, Heart Breaks, Losses, Countless Failures, Financial Crunches, Accidents, Deaths, Etc Etc

BUT THIS TIME I AM DONE...

AND ALL I CAN PRAY IS FOR GOD TO GRANT ME MY DEATH WISH...

I Will Always Wait For You My Love....

I hold my phone close to my heart hoping you would call, but you don't...
Every now and then I hear the phone ring just to realize it wasn't...
But Every time it did ring I thought it was you, only to realize it was someone else...
Every time I received a SMS I think its from you, only to realize that its spam...
Every time I see your posts online, hoping that it would be something dedicated to us and me, unfortunately there is always something to Shock/Hurt/Destroy Me with stuff dedicated to your new life, your hopes for a new man, your high end materialistic fancies or INSULTING OUR RELATIONSHIP...

I Know You Never Did, You Never Can and You Never Will Be Able To Love Me Truly...
The Way I Did, I Do and Always Will Love Your Truly

But Yet I Will Always Love You And Wait For You My Love...

I WILL ALWAYS BE WORRIED ABOUT YOU MY LOVE...

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE AND WITH WHO YOU ARE I WILL ALWAYS BE WORRIED ABOUT YOU MY LOVE

I will always be worried about:

• Your Health and Well Being
• Your Mental and Spiritual Evolution
• Your Way of Life
• Your Addictions and Weakness
• Your Physical, Mental & Spiritual Safety and Security

All I can do is Hope Wish and Pray for You...

God Bless You My Love... Please Be Good, Do Good & Always Stay Safe...

Everything That I Am, I Am Because Of My LOVE FOR YOU....

I was very very young when I first felt that I had a Soulmate. In fact it was from that very moment that my life changed forever...

Since then Everything in my life was clear. I had only One Goal: To give my best, to make myself

• A Perfect Man that my Soulmate would be proud of, though I know that she would love me no matter whether I was the president of a Country, bill or just an ordinary guy. I must always be capable of supporting and looking after my Soulmate, even if she couldn't. For That I would Have To
• Be A Good Human Being (The most difficult task in the world) - By being a Good Man, Good Lover & Husband, Good Son, Good Sibling, Good Friend and a Good Social Being. 
• I should never ever get attracted to or be carried away by all the evil or materialistic things in the world. 
• I will have to destroy everything evil and bad inside of me. I know the evil way of life is the most tempting and attractive but I will find the right way, no matter how difficult a path it is to follow I will keep trying and never give up
• Learn everything that would be necessary to Look After/Help/Protect/Support my Soulmate to not just Exist and Survive, but to also live life peacefully and happily.

So to make my self as Perfect A Man I could be for my Soulmate, I had to develop my Body, Mind and Spirit.
With this Goal firmly fixed in my mind, I started my search for knowledge and the truths of Life, God, Love, Sacrifice, Honesty, Loyalty and everything I could, to help me in my Impossible task to becoming a Good Human Being. It took me years of mistakes, hurt and failures to even learn the little that I have, and am still learning. Not surprisingly it has been more difficult, to imbibe and put to practice all that have learnt.
In Order to help me face this challenge, I started to follow One of the most Perfect Ways of Life known to man: MARTIAL ART (Budo in Japanese). Martial Art helps me connect with my Spirit, Discipline & Focus my Mind and Strengthen my weak Body. It helps me fight the evil/bad things that had gotten inside of me (from the merciless evil world, that was I helplessly and continuously exposed to since my childhood...)

In addition to all the above, I had to try to learn all the practical skills of life as much as my Body could take and which ranged from Cooking, Self Defense, Home Management, Science & Technology, Computers, Business, Basic First Aid & Medicine, Jungle/Calamity Survival, Music, Dancing & Entertainment, Hygiene, Dressing, Etiquette, Interpersonal & Communication Skills, Looking after Pets to Repairing & Maintenance of things etc.

TO BE HONEST: I ALWAYS KNEW THAT I WAS TRYING TO ACHIEVE THE MOST DIFFICULT TASK KNOWN TO MAN AND HAVE TO ADMIT THAT THE JOURNEY HAS BEEN EXTREMELY DIFFICULT, CHALLENGING TO MY BODY, MIND & SPIRIT, HUMBLING AND MANY TIMES SEEMINGLY UNREWARDING, JUST REMEMBERING THAT I AM DOING ALL THIS FOR YOU MY SOULMATE, HAS KEPT ME GOING... AND MAKES ME FEEL PROUD THAT AT LEAST I AM TRYING, WHAT MANY WOULD NEVER...

INTERESTINGLY IN MY CASE THE SAYING "LOVE TEACHES ALL" TURNED OUT TO BE PRETTY TRUE...

UNFORTUNATELY EVERYTHING CAME TO CRASH... EVERYTHING I HAD BEEN WORKING HARD TO ACHIEVE, I DESTROYED WITH MY VERY OWN HANDS. JUST BECAUSE OF A FEW UNDESERVING EVIL, SHAMELESS MATERIALISTIC PHYSICAL, MENTAL & SPIRITUAL SLUTS WHO I LET ENTER INTO MY LIFE JUST BECAUSE I  MISTOOK THEM TO BE MY SOULMATE. SINCE MY GUARD USED TO BE ALWAYS DOWN, THEY LEFT NO STONE UNTURNED, TO DESTROY ME SPIRITUALLY, MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY.  THE BACK LASH OF ALL THIS DESTROYED THE HUMAN BEING IN ME AND TRIGGERED THE ANIMAL SIDE OF ME AND TURNED INTO A DEMON, I COULD NEVER IMAGINE I COULD EVER BECOME.....

THOUGH I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY TRANSFORMED MYSELF BACK TO WHAT I REALLY AM, I AM STILL IN PAIN BECAUSE OF THE INJURIES  INFLICTED ON MY BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT. WHICH WILL HEAL ONLY WHEN YOU MY SOULMATE WILL COME IN TO MY LIFE...

BEING IN LOVE WITH YOU MY SOULMATE IS VERY PAINFUL AND LONELY MOST OF THE TIME, BUT MY HOPE OF BEING WITH YOU WILL NEVER DIE TILL MY LAST BREATH AND SO I WILL CONTINUE MY EFFORT TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL TO BE EVERYTHING FOR YOU MY SOULMATE.... 

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU..... (Song Dedication)

My Love Its all I have to say to you...

I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston

from The Bodyguard Soundtrack

If I
Should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go
But I know
I'll think of you every step of
the way

And I...
Will always
Love you, oohh
Will always
Love you
You
My darling you
Mmm-mm

Bittersweet
Memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So good-bye
Please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you
You need

And I...
Will always love you
I...
Will always love you
You, ooh

I hope
life treats you kind
And I hope
you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy
and happiness
But above all this
I wish you love

And I...
Will always love you
I...
Will always love you
[Repeat]

I, I will always love
You....
You
Darling I love you
I'll always
I'll always
Love
You..
Oooh
Ooohhh